Gotta get this off my chest

Here are some words of advice if you want to get along with me...

"I don't care how much you know, until I know how much you care."

This statement pretty much sums me up. I really don't give a rip about what you think about me or what you think is wrong with me unless I know you care. Don't waste your or my time telling me what I am doing wrong or trying to change me unless your sure that I know you care about me.

Pretty much I've heard about these 5 languages of love and have found them to be true for all people. They are the ways that people could either give or receive love.

1. Physical Touch
2. Quality Time
3. Words of affirmation
4. Gifts
5. Acts of service

I understand and value each of these, but there is one that really means a lot to me and without it, the others mean nothing to me. That one would be QUALITY TIME. I will know that someone really cares about me if they just spend some time with me. Just talk to me. On the flip side of that, if someone doesn't do these things then everything else means nothing. If you tell me you love me, but don't spend any time with me, then your words are just empty.

The people I am closest to and love with all of my heart are the people who I know care about me because they spend time with me. For example, I really really REALLY cherish any time I get to spend with April because when I do get that opportunity... I don't know. I just love any time I get to just talk to her. Anytime I have come home and she sees me, she will ask me how my day was. Just check in with me and talk to me. I never had that growing up, so even when I don't say much, she still talks with me. Now I look forward to the times when I walk in the door and she is there, because I know she is going to ask me about my day. This little tiny thing tells me that April loves me, when I am sure she thinks nothing of it because its just natural for her.

I had meltdown this week. I got really pissed off because there are a lot of people who I used to be close with, but I never talk to them now. People I see all the time, but never REALLY TALK to. I understand people are busy and stuff, but I just wish people would understand that a relationship can be anything you want it to be. IF you don't invest in it, it will fade and if you do then it will blossom. I don't get how people can never spend time with me and then expect for us to be best friends...?


OUCH!!! Conviction is starting!

So even right now, as I am writing this I fee like a JERK! I am such a hypocrite! Yeah my feelings are valid, but what I don't like to be don't to me, I do to someone every single day!!! WOW! I haven't been spending time with my Jesus like I used to... God is showing me something RIGHT NOW! How can I expect to have relationship with God if I don't spend time with Him!? No doubt my feelings are kinda hurt, but I cant imagine how I have made God feel by ignoring him and just worrying about my own self-absorbed issues. I need to get over myself, Forgive those who have hurt me, and go repent for my sin. WOW!

Now I'm off to go spend time with my Jesus!

-Corine